Tuesday, June 15, 2010

still waiting

i am still waiting patiently... as patient as i can be... excited nervous scared all wrap in one big ball of emotion... things running thru my brain and my mind...

movies... not really watching anything new... love more watching old movies... i manage to watch twice pretty woman... the holiday... i think 2 of my most fav movies... both movies really touch my heart... i cant find any new movies that touch my heart like those 2 emmm maybe i dont look hard enough...

songs... ahhh i still prefer oldies... maybe i am an old soul trap in this young body :p... muse "unintended" still my fav... but nothing compare to my perfect song.... "my baby you"

books... i bought a bunch of new books 4 i guess... eat pray love... swapping life... love the one ur with... rumor has it... i still prefer light book... nuthing too heavy for me... books that can make me laugh cry and just relax as i read it...

life... i am taking life one day at a time... i have plan n goals but its kept hidden nicely... aim yes i do.... i think i believe that one of my aim will be that i wanna go back to school by da age of 35... yes cont my studies... other than that one day at the time and when i reach da junction which i have to choose then i will... coz i cant plan my life too much... just hope pray for the best.... dont be too stress...

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

10 days or less or more...


i am now waiting... yup staying home waiting... nervous sure i am... scared alil bit or is it more... i just hope that during my check up they will ask me to go to the hospital like how it happen with ibby... there fore i am ready hohohoho...
hows ibby... he is ready but at the same time i am not sure wether he will really understand da impact of this lil one... well for once my focus will be abit more to lil one and that lil one will be attached to me... but it wont mean that ibby will be second grade... just hope that ibby will love lil one...
emmmm whatelse... i am planning to buy a few books well around 4 books maybe to prepare me for labor hihihihihihi...
miss my family miss my frenz

Sunday, May 30, 2010


there he is the future big brother... 2 yrs 5 mths...

Monday, May 24, 2010

3 weeks to go i guess

hello ppl....

i guess now i am left with 3 weeks to go... yups....

am i ready... i think so...

do i have the right name... yes i think so...

i hope that everything will go well...

nuthing much....

byeee

Thursday, May 20, 2010

lil things in life

hey there...

i am counting down... nervous... abit ready maybe... ha just go with the flow...

ibrahim is behaving well... am i preparing him to be a big bro i think... he does talk to da lil one and just now he sang abc to da lil one... but i am wandering will he be okay when he have to share the attention i wander...

hows my life on da other hand... its okay... great well i am not sure but then i am okay... happiness yes i have it... *lil one kicking nite times seems to be da fav time of da day* grateful that is what i am feeling... thankful for da things that i have...

if there is a piece missing da answer is obvious... missing my famili and my dearest frenz that is undeniable... missing da comfort of knowledge that its just a phone call away a drive away and lrt ride away... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... but i shouldnt b stress... thank u for FB i am keeping in touch with my frenz and famili...

but then this is life... u make choices... u choose a path... if its wrong u try to make it right... or try to make da best from the situation... but one thing for sure never take everything for granted... look at the brightside... b positive life will turn around... it will get better...

miss u all... take care....

Monday, May 17, 2010

countdown

its midnite now.... sleeping not yet but soon... watching ibrahim sleep ahhhhhhhhhh heaven n peace.... alwiz manage to calm me down...

its now roughly another 4 weeks to go before da lil one pop out... been feeling tired... apart of me cant wait to see lil one but then apart of me is not sure can i handle 2 hihihihihi.... ppl saying its like a kid having a kid... coz i myself is still like a kid...

why am i writing things that are not connected... its like my mind is all jumble up cant decide what to write about coz of so many things... been trying to write properly meaningful things but it feels hard difficult...

maybe i sgould go to sleep now... goodnite

Saturday, May 8, 2010

happy mother's day to all......
lots of love speacially to my own mak