Tuesday, June 15, 2010

still waiting

i am still waiting patiently... as patient as i can be... excited nervous scared all wrap in one big ball of emotion... things running thru my brain and my mind...

movies... not really watching anything new... love more watching old movies... i manage to watch twice pretty woman... the holiday... i think 2 of my most fav movies... both movies really touch my heart... i cant find any new movies that touch my heart like those 2 emmm maybe i dont look hard enough...

songs... ahhh i still prefer oldies... maybe i am an old soul trap in this young body :p... muse "unintended" still my fav... but nothing compare to my perfect song.... "my baby you"

books... i bought a bunch of new books 4 i guess... eat pray love... swapping life... love the one ur with... rumor has it... i still prefer light book... nuthing too heavy for me... books that can make me laugh cry and just relax as i read it...

life... i am taking life one day at a time... i have plan n goals but its kept hidden nicely... aim yes i do.... i think i believe that one of my aim will be that i wanna go back to school by da age of 35... yes cont my studies... other than that one day at the time and when i reach da junction which i have to choose then i will... coz i cant plan my life too much... just hope pray for the best.... dont be too stress...

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

10 days or less or more...


i am now waiting... yup staying home waiting... nervous sure i am... scared alil bit or is it more... i just hope that during my check up they will ask me to go to the hospital like how it happen with ibby... there fore i am ready hohohoho...
hows ibby... he is ready but at the same time i am not sure wether he will really understand da impact of this lil one... well for once my focus will be abit more to lil one and that lil one will be attached to me... but it wont mean that ibby will be second grade... just hope that ibby will love lil one...
emmmm whatelse... i am planning to buy a few books well around 4 books maybe to prepare me for labor hihihihihihi...
miss my family miss my frenz

Sunday, May 30, 2010


there he is the future big brother... 2 yrs 5 mths...

Monday, May 24, 2010

3 weeks to go i guess

hello ppl....

i guess now i am left with 3 weeks to go... yups....

am i ready... i think so...

do i have the right name... yes i think so...

i hope that everything will go well...

nuthing much....

byeee

Thursday, May 20, 2010

lil things in life

hey there...

i am counting down... nervous... abit ready maybe... ha just go with the flow...

ibrahim is behaving well... am i preparing him to be a big bro i think... he does talk to da lil one and just now he sang abc to da lil one... but i am wandering will he be okay when he have to share the attention i wander...

hows my life on da other hand... its okay... great well i am not sure but then i am okay... happiness yes i have it... *lil one kicking nite times seems to be da fav time of da day* grateful that is what i am feeling... thankful for da things that i have...

if there is a piece missing da answer is obvious... missing my famili and my dearest frenz that is undeniable... missing da comfort of knowledge that its just a phone call away a drive away and lrt ride away... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... but i shouldnt b stress... thank u for FB i am keeping in touch with my frenz and famili...

but then this is life... u make choices... u choose a path... if its wrong u try to make it right... or try to make da best from the situation... but one thing for sure never take everything for granted... look at the brightside... b positive life will turn around... it will get better...

miss u all... take care....

Monday, May 17, 2010

countdown

its midnite now.... sleeping not yet but soon... watching ibrahim sleep ahhhhhhhhhh heaven n peace.... alwiz manage to calm me down...

its now roughly another 4 weeks to go before da lil one pop out... been feeling tired... apart of me cant wait to see lil one but then apart of me is not sure can i handle 2 hihihihihi.... ppl saying its like a kid having a kid... coz i myself is still like a kid...

why am i writing things that are not connected... its like my mind is all jumble up cant decide what to write about coz of so many things... been trying to write properly meaningful things but it feels hard difficult...

maybe i sgould go to sleep now... goodnite

Saturday, May 8, 2010

happy mother's day to all......
lots of love speacially to my own mak

Friday, April 30, 2010

ibby plus lil one soon

end of april... another 7 weeks more roughly then the lil one will make his/her debut.... and that time ibby will be 2 yrs 6 mths... should be old enuff to help me take care of lil one... hihihihi as if

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh feeling da block... what i am sure of is i am miing my famili n frenz

Friday, April 23, 2010


*will update later tonight i hope*

Saturday, April 3, 2010

werking here...


its gonna be 3 yrs tomorrow i am werking at the same place... i am not werking in a fancy office here... but then i am loving it coz daily i am seeing ppl and communicating and learning habit of different ppl... they can be rude... nice... patient... charming and many more....

but what i trully love is i am surrounded by toys... yups u hear me right toys... sesame street... and mickey mouse and winnie da pooh... hahhahaha... not forgetting mario n luigi and joining da famili sonic now.... plus all the nice t-shirt that i have here.... ahhhh its great....

summer and xmas that is when life and werk will be very bz for me... and now its spring break therefore so many ppl are entering da shop and shopping like crazie... when its bz it feels so good but during off season ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh boring... bored to death counting hours before i can go home...

do i miss life werking in da office emmmmm i dont really think so.... hihihihi but i love werking in jln ampang before coz my unimate-bedmate-housemate-classmate-bestbestmate is there plus my other cool frenz that keep me sane.... if not i am sure to go crazie...

here its totally different... maybe its not a great great job that pay too much but its still something different and i am loving it... i see so many different ppl that come from everywhere... families frenz gf-bf and bf2 n gf2... and also in my street where i werk they will held *gay parade* hihihihihi... its yucky but so many ppl r there...

emmmm life here it is now just a routine like back in kl.....

Friday, April 2, 2010

a lil bit of everything...


*he is da reason i am breathing laughing smiling*

can u believe it its already April 2010.... ahhh feels like testerday new yr.... feels like yesterday ibby was born.... feels like yesterday he is still this one small lil baby... and now he is already a toddler.... 2 yrs 2 mths.... now he has hiw on personality... habit and things that he loves to do... making faces.... that is his favourite thing to do everyday...

hows life here for me... well its okay... sounds glam being here in nyc but then now life is becoming a routine like back in kl... werking werking werking.... i do enjoy da shopping tho eventho i dont shop for me now coz ibby is there on my mind alwiz so i am more tempted to buy for him than for myself....

this second lil one is kicking away specially during nite... its da baby fav time... another 10 weeks insya allah... hope that everything will go well... scared of coz... hope and pray for the best

where is my passion to write... coz its mostly in my head... putting it down in words is getting abit hard but i am trying to get it back... maybe there is something missing and that i need to find it back... but i will try getting it back slowly... lil by lil....

Thursday, April 1, 2010

a lil bit better....

ibby is feeling abit better just da mummy still abit under the weather... but hoping the cough go away soon....

wit will brb

Friday, March 26, 2010

under da weather


i was under da weather last weekend and now ibby is taking da heat... hope he gets better soon...

i lose weight due to lost of appetite to eat.... ahhh preggy tapi lose weight

opsssss ibby is coughing gtg

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

too long far too long

ahhh.... been a long long time.... gone from all these writing things "baby is kicking plus dancing plus swimming as i am writing"

i have so so much to tell to share to express to say to voice to all the things that is going on but then each time i have writing block.... coz its like my mind and fingers can move along together coz my finger is typing in beginner stage while mind my is going on express train instead of local....

i have to start with only one focus of topic so that my entry make sense... i am going to write more consistently coz writing give me sanity...

da topic i love most is IBRAHIM AMRY TENG.... light of my life my prince of my heart...

can u believe it he is already 2 yrs 2 mths... seems so fast he is growing up so much right in front of my eyes... he is tall.... chubby one yummy lil toddler... he is developing well.... i cound not ask for more....

he talk still is his own language... but understand prefectly when we are saying things to him... abc and 123 alhamdullilah okay.... a for apple till z for zebra... colors hihihihi still learning.... features on the face he knows it when i draw it.... elmo sesame street he loves him.... super why plus sid the science kids plus dinasour trains is his fav show..... he loves the pc so much.... he knows how to watch his fav cartoon on utube once i put it on fav.... opss i forget he loves wubbzy too... shapes of star airplane and such he understand it when i draw eventho ai m not a good artist.... "mummy ibby art fail" ops.....

know what i miss.... da chance to see my son plays with my frenz kids who is same age as him... ahhhh ramai also 20 i thing plus minus 1 yr different yg same age... ahhhh if i am back in kl.... sure everyweekend play date so mummy can have gossip time...but then i am here now a choice in life i m making.... but insya allah... i will be back... if now... can all my dear frenz come plz and bring along ur kids kita buat playdate jom.....

mo matter how tired how da day was at werk... all gone nuthing matter once i m home an hear him say mummy.... ahhhh music.... kalah bunyi "sexaphone" kassim selamat

he is now sleeping and so does mummy need to go to sleep to if not tomolo mummy no werking energy... but insya allah tomolo i will b back again....

btw ibby is going to be a big bro in another 12 weeks roughly will get in my detail in my other entry.... i hope ibby is ready to b big bro....

to all my friends and famili love u all so much...... muahsssss